Day 17

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November 16, 2023

Day 17. Not a good day.

I overworked myself doing yard work, and then I got to babysit. Everything was going well until my sister asked me if I knew about something. I didn’t, and let’s just say.

I had day 17 planned out, but I just need some time today after what I was told. I am fine. Just sad and devastated. Just because we sometimes go years without speaking to people does not mean we have forgotten about them.


Oddly, I said that because that, in a nutshell, is the premise of this movie. Doing whatever it takes to not be forgotten. I also find it terrible that I can unintentionally start relating life events to this movie.



Call or text 988 if you are having suicidal thoughts or are in a significant crisis.

Tomorrow, we will be back to our regularly scheduled program.


Scores remain the same.

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