My what if’s

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 Day 363


October 27, 2024


As I sit with my thoughts, a whirlwind of emotions begins to settle in. I find myself in disbelief over the journey I've taken. Initially, I had anticipated that I would only commit to this project for a month before throwing in the towel. Yet here I am, almost a full year later, immersed in this endeavor, chronicling my experience as I delve into what might be one of the most captivating tales of developmental purgatory in film history. The behind-the-scenes saga of the film’s creation has proven more intriguing than the final product we were ultimately shown. Perhaps there’s a story worth telling about the challenges and delays in bringing a Freddy vs. Jason movie to life.


This leads me to reflect on the countless opportunities I could have seized in the past year to enhance my own well-being. I could have pursued a healthier lifestyle, shedding excess weight and embracing fitness. I might have ventured back into the world of dating, despite my belief that modern romance feels overly complicated and fraught with challenge. Maybe I could have saved diligently for a down payment on a house, or even met someone who could have been the “love of my life,” with dreams of marriage and children dancing in my head.


Instead, I dedicated my time to this seemingly frivolous project, all in an effort to combat my commitment issues. 


It might sound ridiculous, but is it really?


Today, I found joy once more in revisiting FVJ, and the experience left yet another imprint on my journey.

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