Anger

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 Day 204


May 21st, 2024


I just finished watching a film, but for some reason, it left me feeling a bit irritated. Seeing the characters' choices play out made me feel frustrated. I know I've mentioned before that I struggle with some of the decision-making in the story, but today, it got to me.


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